I Have No Idea What I'm Doing.

Well it's been over two years since I wrote a full entry and sooo so very much has happened since then. So very much that I'm not even going to attempt to detail anything about it, but I will give a quick overview: between Feb 2018 and September 2018 ( just typed October because apparently I have no idea where I am in time anymore... ), I embarked on what I will ( begrudgingly ) call a "spiritual journey" ( oof, that sounds so cheesy ). In mid-to-late 2016, a shift started happening and I really started to dive into a pool I had previously only dipped a toe in ( crystals with Dad, practicing yoga, watching The Secret, astrology, chakras, whatnot ); I knew something was changing inside of me, it was necessary and an upgrade, and I really started "doing the work", as They say. ANYWAY, a couple years, some psilocybin journeys, an ayahuasca ceremony, countless meditations, reflections, shifts, and changes later, here I am in 2018. It's September ( ...

 I haven't blogged in over a year FIVE YEARS, so what better time to re-enter the Blog-o-sphere than during the (Jewish) New Year. Here we go...    My father was not pleased when he asked if I knew it was Rosh Hashanah and I replied that I knew via Facebook. He then used this lack of High Holy Day awareness as an example of my denial of my Jewish identity and a reason for why unfortunate things happen to me. He was referring to my iPhone being washed away in a freak El Nino wave accident that weekend, now last Saturday. I also lost my wallet that day, having carelessly placed it on top of my friend’s car before we drove away (update: it has since been recovered by the kind people of Laguna Beach and is being held at the police station!), and my rose quartz crystal the weekend before, and my driver’s license the weekend before that. Suffice to say, weekends have not been kind to me, due in no small part to my affinity for fire water, I’m sure. I do not believe, ...