what a goober.

do you ever do that thing where you start going over, in your head, a conversation (or a number of conversations) you've had with someone and suddenly realize that you may have said some things that probably made you look like a giant ass?

yeah, i'm doing that. i do that a lot, in fact. and you know, i'm going over these things i said, and even as i said them i remembering thinking to myself "STOP TALKING!" and just wanting to crawl under the car seat i was sitting in.

why do i have verbal diarrhea? seriously? like, who lets me talk? who allows me to think for myself and open my mouth and have conversations without screening me first? i could save myself a lot of grief if i could use a script or if it wasn't completely socially awkward to take a whole five minutes to think about what i wanted to say before i said it.

i know negativity and doubt never got anyone anywhere, but i seriously sometimes question how anyone could ever be attracted to me as a person once i open my mouth to speak.

ugh. it's going to be a long month.

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