also,

i get bummed out when i lose my dude friends to girlfriends, as if maintaining a relationship with me will somehow threaten the relationship they have with this other person. that's ridiculous. if you know me at all, you know i'm not that kind of girl. i have your back, with or without a significant other. i don't even care if we have been significant to each other in the past- if it's weird enough, i'll stop talking to you all on my own and give you your relationship space. i'm a very perceptive lady, and i'm fully capable of sensing when my presence is or is not uncomfortable in certain circumstances. chances are, however, that i'm completely unphased and can seamlessly transition from "maybe slightly more than friends" to "completely, totally, just friends, i swear!!!" i always feel like i'm on this same level with my guy friends, until i realize that as soon as girlfriend entered (or re-entered, as the case may be) the picture, my phone no longer buzzed at odd morning hours and my facebook chat no longer *popped* and my IM boxes no longer opened up with "talking for the sake of talking" messages. i guess this wouldn't be such a big deal if there were an explanation, or fair warning, or if maybe the person i no longer feel completely comfortable talking to wasn't such a source of support for me as well when i was going through some crap right along with them.

i mean, i know it's not THAT huge of a deal and i'm sure things will smooth out and go back to normal in time. it's just a bummer because those thoughts and feelings of "i really just want to talk to ::insert name here::" and "i wonder how ::insert name here:: is doing, maybe i should text him" haven't subsided, and are unfortunately followed by "...but i'm not sure it's such a good idea".

::sigh:: such is life, i suppose.